How hard is too bloody hard??

I woke up this morning and had an immediate knowing that today was not going to be the day to push things with myself or my two teenage daughters – today needed to be a rest day, a couch/movie/chill day.

Did I listen though??

Not so much….

If you’re just getting to know me, you might not know it yet, but I’m not really one to listen without question or without at least a little push back. Even with my Spirit team, I’ll often question their advice or suggestions, or negotiate with them to make it work better for me. Sometimes I just really don’t like to be told what’s best for me!

So, anyway, I tried to get the girls moving this morning, tried to get them going with their homeschooling work for the day. And, about 5 minutes in, my beautiful, sweet 13 year old was basically spitting venom at me like a cobra. And, wouldn’t you know it, I just could not muster the patience or strength to be understanding and compassionate and calm with her puberty-hormone-causing anger and all around stroppiness!

So, I said ~~ever so calmly~~ ~~with all of my emotional intelligence~~ something along the lines of homeschool is done for today, and locked myself in my office, using all of my strength to sit at my desk and breathe without hissing.

Then, I realised I probably could have avoided that whole encounter if I had just listened to my intuition this morning, and told the kids to enjoy a chill day on the couch (the weather was even perfect for a day on the couch covered in blankets!).

Hmmmm….

But I thought I was doing the right thing, the responsible thing! You know what I mean, right?

So then I decided I was actually feeling pretty good sitting at my desk, so I might as well make a landing page for this website.

Bloody hell….

I must have tinkered and tweaked and played around with it for a couple of hours before I finally realised, it was just too bloody hard! I was trying to do something that I felt was really important for my business, and it was just too bloody hard. It wasn’t a question of being motivated enough to make it happen, it was just too bloody hard!

So, I ended up tweaking one of my existing pages instead, and oh my, it was so easy! The words flowed out of me, the pictures I could see in my head miraculously appeared before me, and practically put themselves into my page. And I realised I had achieved what I had wanted to achieve with the landing page anyway, only in less than half the time!

And it got me thinking, how hard is too bloody hard? Surely I’m not the only one who pushes back and then later on realises I made things sooo much harder for myself?? Surely not?

I’m even finding it too hard to find my original point for this blog…

Intuitively I know I’ve well and truly hit my limit for brain thinking type stuff today….but, dammit, I want to finish with an awesome mind-blowing point!

Bugger it, I’ll borrow one from someone else.

*searches for 20 minutes for a quote that will work here*

OK, so that’s not any easier…

I guess what I’m trying to say is pushing through is not always the answer, nor is trying harder and harder, or sticking with it. Sometimes, it’s too bloody hard because it’s just not right for you or it’s not the right time, the right place, the right person, the right price.

And, sometimes when your intuition or your spirit guides give you an easy answer you should just go with it.